Dear brother,it's hard to say something when we are face to face...and i still have a lot thing that haven't say in these 6 days.
Brother, u are a very nice person that u can tolerate all the things. This is your personality, keep that up!!!! That personality is too attractive to people!!
Secondly, u must take care for yourself which means love more yourself. I am very very worry with u because u look not actually happy. please find something that u are enjoyable and make your life be more exciting.
I just have heard what u say before. You are sad about your ex-girlfriend, right? But my dear brother, u should look forward and don't always look back!! Although we don't know why your ex girlfriend left you lastly, i believe that she must have her own reason. Apart from the grandma's strongly rejection with your love relationship, i think that my dear, u should also take a responsibility into your relationship too. Think about what did you done before that making her cry alone, so far she disappointed with you. Maybe you aren't sensitive with girl feeling, so she may think that you don't really love her as u said before. Let me give an example to u,
please don't leave girls alone when she is sad even though she says that she was okay. U should stay with her and listen her sadness until she is really actually okay. So be more sensitive and consider with girl's feeling, let her feels that you always behind with her. That's all reflections that u need to do.
Third, to be honest, it is may a bad news for you : a girl will never or seldom choose the one who hurted her before. It's because a girl doesn't want to get hurting again. Hence, my dear brother, it's time to put down her. She is starting with her new life and u should do same also. U can have a right to be happy without her, right? Please love yourself more. I am so worried about you , my dear.
Fourth, i suggest you to have a change. What does a meaning of change? A change is including to lose weight, be more sunshine, enjoy with your life. But the most important thing is that you should prepare yourself for your future girlfriend or your wife. U need a healthy body to work, so u can earn money to your family. That's the reason why i strongly suggest for u to keep fit. Moreover, u need to start to consider with what does the girls are thinking about. But before starting with be considerate, u need to CHEER UP yourself FIRSTLY. It is because if u can't cheer up with yourself, it's hard to be a man that cheer up your woman also. Therefore, u need to cheer up yourself first, then be considerate with the girls and loss weight. At the same time, u should keep some money for preparing your future wedding. Moreover, it is best for you to prepare yourself which can improving your problem. It is too late when u are just starting to prepare yourself during have a next relationship. I don't know your others problem,so u need to think about, such as what have u done before that let ex-girlfriend down. Furthermore, i can't give many opinions to u since i am too young and my life experience is few. So perhaps u should many people as u can, such as my mom. I believe that my mother will not hurt us because of we are family. And her life experience is abundance, so she told us which people are good or not. However, sometimes, her suggestions are not good. So u need to think about it. No one can control our life, so u can listen the others opinion. But u need to make your own decisions which is the most comfortable choice lastly.
Lastly, my dear brother, i am really really worry about u. I really hope u can get all the best as u can!!! I want you can be happy and don't have troubles. Staring to spend more time with grandma, be a practice exercise about conservativing girls feeling. Start to learn about take care yourself also, which also love yourself. Starting to learn some cooking, so u can cook something for your love when she sicks. Be happy, stay with strong!!! We are family, i will not let u alone. So if u are sad or want to share to someone, u can text to me or have a video chatting. Remember that the process of a change is so hard, because u need to attempt a new style in your life. Such like me, i will not tell you that studying in Australia is so easy for me. But i deeply believe that i can gain benefits after finishing studying in Australia. Actually, i know that my boyfriend is weaker than me, so i want to study more to find a higher salary job. Then my husband will be less stressful to support a family. So please strongly suggest to u that having a change. This change is not benefit for me or my mum or grandma, but this change is benefit for u and your wife too. So please have a change!!! I will always support for u, my dear brother, we all always love u! Therefore, u also need to love more with yourself too since we all want to u become a sunshine boy that seems like i saw u before when i was primary school. Just tell me everything if u like.