One of the things we will have to do when I visit is set aside some time to talk about how Ruth's death has affected me emotionally.
I've already told you that I won't string you along if I cannot fully commit to you. At least on my part, that decision will be made during the next few weeks.
A big part of that choice will be an honest assessment of whether I am able to put those emotions aside
-- not forgetting them, but also not letting them keep me from loving again.
Frankly, that decision will have very little to do with you ... it's an internal decision I have to make on my own.
I know it's better to have this discussion in person. But, I wanted you to be prepared ... and from what you have written, I believe you are bettered prepared than I am. I suspect part of that is due to your strong personality and life experiences ... and part of it is due to your religious beliefs and training.
Just be prepared for one evening of tears ... I hope that's not frowned upon too harshly by your culture.