You are not alone Chapter 4 of 10
Chapter 4-Loneliness
I woke up the next morning feeling awful. The bruises on my body were red and swollen.
But I didn't care. What mattered the most to me was how awful I acted towards Tsumugu last night
I needed to apologize as soon as possible.
I walked towards my closet and started putting on my clothes. I stopped for a few seconds, and gazed upon my own reflection in the mirror.. * sigh * 'I'm truly pathetic..'
As I was making my way downstairs, I heard a loud crash.
I rushed down and saw Tsumugu sitting on the floor in the kitchen.
'' Tsumugu, are you okay?'' I asked, Looking down on my friend who didn't look like himself.
'Maybe he didn't get enough sleep'.
'' Tsumugu?''
He didn't answer me, he just sat there looking down, and when I offered him my hand he didn't take it. Instead he grabbed onto the kitchen counter and pulled himself up.
Then he walked away.
''eh?'' 'what just happened? He is probably still upset about last night.
I'll do my best and apologize to him later today then.'
A few hours passed but whenever I approached him and tried to apologize he would just leave the room without saying a word. After failing countless of times I decided to let him be for a while.
I went into my room and closed the door. I sat down on the bed and pulled the covers over my head.
'What should I do?, Tsumugu isn't talking to me. Without him I have nobody by my side'.
I felt as if I was being punished for a crime I didn't commit. 'Why? Why did the sea god punish me? I never did anything wrong. So why did he take everyone I ever cared about away from me and leaving me here all alone. If I knew that it would be like this I would've just stayed in the water and never ever come to the surface in the first place.
I feel so lonley right now.' * sniff *
I stared crying, I swore to myself that I would get stronger and now always being so weak. But now I couldn't help it. I never thought that Tsumugu could have such an impact on me.
'Maybe I do really like him after all..' * sigh *
I decided that I was gonna give it one more shot and apologize.
I stood outside his room for a few seconds before I knocked.
'' Tsumugu? Are you in there?'' I didn't hear a reply. The only sound I heard was the sound of the floor creaking.
'' I really want to talk to you, can I come in?''
'That's it!' I was starting to get really tired of his behavior so I opened the door.
Much to my surprise Tsumugu wasn't there. The room was completely empty.
I rushed downstairs and called out his name.
'' Tsumugu! Tsumugu! Where are you? ''
But he was nowhere to be seen.
I looked outside. 'It's getting dark. I should probably go out and look for him'
I ran out of the house as fast I could , My feet have probably never moved so fast before. I need to find him as soon as possible! ' I don't want to be left alone again. I need him more then he knows'
I'm selfish..The only reason why I need him so much is so that I dont have to be alone.
I looked for him at his usual hangouts, The bridge, where we keep the nets, the forest behind our school.
* huff * ' ah where is he? '
I felt tears running down my face. 'I don't want to be alone.'
Just when I was about to give up I saw him standing in front of me.
'' Tsumugu!'' the tears started flowing and I ran to him
''Tsumugu! I'm so glad I found you'', I said as I was bawling my eyes out
'' eh? '' He looked at me stunned as he was unable to say anything.
'' Tsumugu! I'm so sorry for how I acted I know you were just worried about me and I'm sorry I should've just told you, I'm so sorry so please don't leave me alone. I don't want to lose you to!''
He moved in closer and pulled me into a warm embrace.
Then I heard his breathing becoming hitched as if he was trying to hold back crying.
'' Idiot, don't you remember? What I told you that time in your room after you dreamt that nightmare. I will never leave your side,Chisaki I promise''
His grip around me tightened. It felt nice Tsumugu was so warm.
We just stood there for a while and I wished that this moment could last forever.
The there was absolute silent, the only sound to be heard was the sound of waves crashing against the the rocks.
'' Chisaki we should probably go home,I'll prepare dinner tonight''
'' mm , just wait a second.''
I turned around and looked at the ocean. ' Thank you sea-god. I guess you aren't punishing me. This feels more like a great dream now, That you have given me someone like him to care for me, someone to take care of me. So please Sea-god take care of Manaka,Hikari,kaname and everyone else in Shioshishio for me.'
'' The ocean is really beautiful isn't it? ''
I looked over at Tsumugu who was standing waiting for me
'' yeah'' he replied, '' really beautiful''.
Then I dashed to him and grabbed his hand and we slowly walked toward our house.
'Now I will never be alone again'
That's what I thought back then, I never could've imagined at that moment that something could split us up.