On the outside, people would view me as perfect, even though everyone of course has their shortfalls. I have and always have had straight A’s, a great family, I love God, I am confident in who I am, I am considerably pretty, popular, and I love doing good work that makes people smile. I love those things about myself, but inside I have always felt this void. I see the cute couple in the mall, or the couple at the local skating rink, or even my friends who have, despite everything they’ve done, found that special someone… Time and time again. Me though, I stand as the third wheel. The one who has never been kissed or been on a date.
I mean sure my parents are strict and they make their presence known around school, but I want to know what it feels like. I want to know what it feels like to kiss in the rain, or stare in your eyes and see everything that I always have and ever will want. I want to know what it is like to have someone save their last dance for me. I want to know what it’s like to text all night and wake for school the next morning. I want to know what it’s like to have tough times, but to always come back and apologize because I know that you are faithful and you know that I am as well.
Sure. I have standards; don’t we all. And after all this time, I’m now seventeen, so I have built up a guard; strong like a fortress. But, that guard could come down, you just have to be willing to come get me. Many of times, I have tried to build up my confidence and go after those guys I was interested in, but the quest never works.
I have tried and many times failed. I am not giving up, but sometimes I wonder if the quest is worth it when everyone already doesn’t give me a glance because of my “perfect” exterior. But, You; you aren’t afraid to look at my interior and see that I have a lot of things going for me, but I am not perfect. I’m traditional; I want you to be chivalrous and I want you to do things correctly because you want to. I want you to care about the things in your life, including school. I want you to love my family just as much as you love me and I want them to love you.
Yeah. I have a few standards and perhaps that is why I am still single. I don’t want to cry to anymore songs or think about all the things I’m missing because you haven’t showed up yet. But, I’m willing to wait. I know you’re waiting to walk into my life at the perfect time, but could you at least speed up the process? :)
Every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month, and every year, I wait for you. I have asked God, and this Christmas, and even Santa Claus haha, for you to show up, but you haven’t. Call me a hopeless romantic, which I am, but I know that you will find me. I want to be one less lonely girl. Yes, sometimes it feels like everybody’s got somebody, but me, but I know that isn’t true because you’re out there too.
Don’t be like everyone else because I know you aren’t like the rest of them. You are you and I am me and even if we don’t work out for forever, I do know that we have this perfect time period in both of our lives that is cut out for just the two of us. I have tried to find you and that has obviously proved to be the wrong option, so find me. Give me the chance that no one else, that I want, has dared to. I will be there for you as you will be for me. I will hold you up to the standards I hold myself to and you will hold me to your standards too and together, we will create some beautiful memories.
Love,