I want to start by saying that i have alot of bad feelings inside me from my kid years, i get bullied alot. In my school time i hear everyday other kids call me many bad things. That made me sad and feel bad. And it went on for many years and those feelings i keep inside me for many years, so last night i felt no one listen to me when i was goliekeeper. The trainer say to me talk more tell other players what to do because i see the field best in goal. But no one listen to me. And that made me irritaded, and no one really talk to me yesterday either, that made me thinking negative why i play if nobody care what i do for the team. Its just a mess in my head right now