This is what I don't know. Yeah. I don't want her to turn away from me. (T: That relationship-) And I don't even know how I feel about it because there are times when I feel so guilty like when I have a man over, I even try to make a special set up so that if I were ever alone with him, the children would never catch me in that sort of thing. Because I'm real leery about it (T: Mhm). And yet I also know that I have these desires.