I just feel like we're living in a society that's constantly telling us to pursue our passion and if you don't live your life to it's fullest and you're squnandering it which makes sense to me but then you go out to pursue those passions and stuff like the economy and other forces outside of your control constantly be you back down so you ultimately have to live your life choosing between either making ends meet for self I actualization you're in this constant existence tial purgatory and you just can't win