Last summer was what i thought was the best summer of my life. I experienced what it was like to truly be in love, and to "think" you have your whole life figured out. 4 months ago I felt what it feels like to lose it all. Thankfuly I have had some good friends to put their foot in my ass and keep me on track while I was losing myself. From all of this is learned.. I am not making those life sacrifices again. I dont have to be "on the scene" I am not staying out late, I am getting up early. I am not planning my day around anyone else, Im not running here and there for ballgames and practice 9 days a week. Yes, I am going to the gym today, and every other day of the week. I dont need to lay in bed at night and wonder how much you have had to drink and if you are coming home. I dont need to have to wonder who ur new friend "Angie" is that blows up your phone...Only to find out months down the road that "Angie" is a dude you see while Im busting my ass for us to have a decent life. I dont want to meet your friends, I dont want to meet your family. I dont want to hear how you"are different than the rest' or how you "won't do what she did to me" Because eventually, everything gets old and stagnant, and yes you will, its just a matter of time. It is nice to finally be able to lay my head down and sleep all night long, and wake up without any anxiety or stress. For once im going to be selfish. Im going to worry about me, and what I want. I like the changes Ive made, and the time I have now to dedicate to my training..And I will go as far as I can go. I dont need someone up my ass 247 to make me happy. Im happy being free.