I do understand what you trying to tell us....indeed!!!.....but wtf that he have done with you my dear...this make me get angry!!!! You know?! I am sorry but I have to say that he dont deserve you. Btw live your life and get stronger. You are a good person both inside and outside why you let the guy with a bad heart hurt you?! Take your time......and take care I maybe said a bad word but I really feels bad with this.......and hope you get better soon.....