I was thinking that it would be impossible again, it is very difficult to make you feel the same again, and it probably easier to me forget you because I feel so bad it like me waiting for something, and don"t know what it is wait for what will not happen. Feel empty, I thought if we were friends. It might be better although I wasn't okay but I'll try because at least I still have you and I believe that you will come back to Thailand and it may not be on December like we had planned, but I really believe that you'll be back and maybe still high hopes for you feel again when we're better than now better for each other