You had me under your spell. Every word you said had me amazed. You made me believe that I wasn’t good enough. Then, when I had you, I realized that you weren’t all that great. I also came to the realization that I wasn’t good enough, no, I was better. I was more than enough-- I am perfect.
You haunt me. I wake up in the middle of the night in terror that you’ll be back to hurt me. Your words — they were sharper than knives and yes they left me scars. You told me that I was good for nothing. The memories we had mean nothing because I know that those feelings weren’t real. You said you loved me but the truth is, you will never know what love is. You can’t even love yourself. I am strong for forgiving you of all the pain you brought to me.
You were an expert at empty promises. Promises that never seemed to come true because you never put in effort to make them true. You may be bigger physically but you’ll never be better. You were temptation and I’m glad I had the strength to say no. In that case, I am both bigger and better.
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You had me at hello. You overlooked my past and my flaws. You found me perfect despite me falling short on some aspects. You were accepting of my scars. You promised me a great life with you and that’s what I received. You told me to take your hand and follow you and that’s exactly what I have done.
To all the previous boys who had me: you’ll never know what I was capable of because none of you believed in my dreams. This man that finds me beautiful, including my scars left behind from another man. He thinks I am a great person for still having a kind and an open heart even though my heart has only heard constant lies from different mouths. Best of all, he finds me perfect in every way.