My LoveHow was your nite hope it was great? thanks for your caring message you do sent to me always. there is so much i want to tell you, a lot has been running through my mind as i lay down in my bed missing and thinking about you. I'm having trouble putting my thoughts into words so you will have to bare with me through this.I keep thinking about the future, about life, and what i want out of it. I keep thinking about us and what this relationship means to me. I keep thinking about these things and i realize they go hand in hand. This relationship is my future; it's what i want out of life. I want to grow old with you.and experience this crazy love forever and ever, and i really think I'm going to get to. I want us to walk through new houses picking the one that would be just right for us to live forever and a day. I want to see you walk around our house in a big t-shirt with your hair down and catch me staring at how gorgeous you are,pull the covers off me at night and then i have to get even closer, if it's possible, to keep the cold away.I want to see you laugh like crazy at me when i do stupid stuff. I want to rub lotion all over your body because you laid out in the sun too long..I want to see you,me and brian around the house, all three of us laughing our heads off and having fun.I want to hold you when you cry and smile with you when you smile. I want to fall asleep every night with you in my arms and kiss your fore-head gently while we proceed to the dreamland. I want you to fall asleep on my chest listening to the beat of my heart and know it beats for you, i want you to be the first thing i see when i wake up and the last before i go to sleep. I want to see your bad morning hair; I think it will be so cute. I want to sit on the beach with you and watch the sun set and i want all the people who pass us to envy the love that we obviously have for each other. i want to take your hand for the rest of my life, spend all night and maybe the next day, making love to you with an undying passion (sorry to be so blunt). I want to be seventy years old and still make out with you like a little schoolboy, i think this is the cutest.I want to cook a meal with you and us totally ruin it and end up doing take out. I want to sit there talking to you for hours about nothing at all but in the same time everything or maybe we won't talk at all and just grin at each other realizing how lucky we are. I want you to get mad at me for doing something stupid and i want you to burst out laughing when you try to yell at me. I want to lay with you in front of a fireplace and keep the heat going long after the fire goes out.I want to take trips with you to places we've never been and experience them together, all of us. I want us to go skinny-dipping in a hotel pool and get caught and streak back to our hotel room waking everyone up because we are laughing so hard. I want us to go and pick out the hot tub we want with the biggest grins on our faces,i think this would be the nicest too or what do you think?? I want our friends to come over and get totally jealous because they don't share a love like we do. I want to be walking into a store with you and trip and fall on my face and turn around to see you rolling on the ground laughing at me. I want us to run outside in the rain and act like total kids getting completely soaked, and when we come back in stripping down to nothing as we stumble into the bedroom, or the kitchen counter, or the balcony, or the dinning room table, or an office desk, or the shower, which ever one we feel like at the time, but i think the kids will be envy of this particular thing, getting wet in the rain...what do you think about that also???I want it to take your breath away every time i say, 'I love you' because you know it's coming from the heart. I want us to sit down with a box of strawberries, a bottle of chocolate syrup, and a thin of mint chocolate ice cream; well, I will let your imagination finish that one. I want to love you and be with you for at least forever if not a little longer. I couldn't really express in words what I'm feeling right now, so i decided to share with you SOME of the images and thoughts that have been running through my head since i met you and all through my day as i work. I have been dreaming all this with you my love and they are many more, but i can't just put them into writing.I just want you to know that i had never found someone i really wanted to spend the rest of my life with for a long time now, until i met you. Really am crazy about you, everything about you my love, everything.......Missing you has become a sweet hobby and sweet dream as you journey through the dream-land,kisses/hug