Some days teaching can be really rough. The kids can be incredibly unruly, the content can be frustrating to try to communicate in English, and things just rarely go as planned. But lately, I have been finding that whenever one of my classes leaves me feeling defeated or down, my coworkers bring me up. Whenever I receive information about how the lesson I just spent two hours teaching was already taught last semester, I walk into a class of little angels with smiling faces, enthusiastic and eager to learn. Each day is incredibly different, and each day there is something positive that can be focused on, something that can trump all of the negatives, and make everything worth it.
I often wonder what it is that I’m looking for in Thailand. At first I thought it was a profession. Trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, where I want to go, how I can grow, who I want to be. Now I’m not so sure. What if I’m just here to experience all of these amazing individual days, filled with sometimes seemingly insignificant moments, that will add up to something incredible and indescribable? To take all of these small instances in, soak them up, and learn to appreciate life even more? I still don’t know for sure, but I do think I’m slowly getting closer to finding out. Even if I never have that “ah-ha” moment, I’m okay if I just end up walking away with millions of extraordinary minutes like these.