Well, I wake up at 2 or 3 A.M., and I worry about what Tuti did to me. I get up, light up a cigarette, turn on the TV, and stare at it. I don’t really watch it. I get tried and try to go back to sleep. Most of the time I do not get to sleep till about 5 A.M. Then I have to get up at 6:30. I hear the alarm and drag myself out of bed. Before she left, Tuti woke me up and made coffee, and we would have a cup together and then discuss our day. Now I am alone.