I talk with doctor, and alf allow me to write. Alf is totally exhausted in body and mind. Eat to little and to little sleep. The crying attack yesterday was a cry out for help, but at the same time a heavy reaction because of big sorrow.
Not to see or meet a person that the actual person not can meet can of course give that crying attack.
If alf want, alf can get help to forget the person he don't meet by hypnotic.
Alf is a very sensitive person.