so lets talk about fushimi’s defensive mechanisms for hiding his confusing emotions
isolating himself
getting annoyed at people who ask him if he’s okay/try to get him to confront his feelings
harming himself in the face of painful emotions
subconsciously falling back on acting like his father, who he hated, because he doesn’t know how else to deal (luckily only brought out in the most painful scenarios)
turns even more inward when confronted instead of opening up and getting even worse
pushing people away
lying through his teeth instead of admitting he’s distressed
literally just getting up and walking away in the face of a talk confronting his emotions
rejects anything that could one day hurt him (friends, family, clans etc)