Now about me.................and I hope you will read everything I write as it is important to me that you understand how I think, and how I feel. I hope we can be friends and still chat after this message, and I say that because yes, I am married.
I have lived in Thailand for just over 4 years and have been married all that time, having met a lady on a dating site when I lived in England. I have one boy in England who is now 8 but I never see him or anything, very sad.
The last year has not been so good for me, and I have started to feel lonely. We do not have lots of money now, as I spend too much on land and a new house, but we have some money. So my wife goes to work to make more and comes back very tired, and has nearly no time for me. So I sit in the house all day on my own, and even at night I am on my own as she sleeps very early. In less than 4 years I will have some good money again, and she can stop working maybe, but I am not sure I can stay for another 4 years.
I have talked to her about this and she is trying to be better for me, but I do not think she can do this for a long time. I am sure she loves me but I do not feel that love, and it makes me very sad sometimes.
So, for now, I am looking to find some nice friends to talk with, and be a little more happy. I want to be a good friend to someone, because I know if I divorce I cannot live alone, as I need to be close to someone and feel loved and cared for. If I divorced then maybe a good friend can become more, I do not know about that now of course.
Even if I can be a friend that you can talk to when you feel lonely or a little sad, maybe I can make you smile again. I do not know if more can happen for us, can only know about that in time.
If we are friends and you find another man, that is okay and I will understand and let you get to know him.
I am not sure why I tell you all of this other than because I am honest, but I also think there might be something else - I think I really like you, certainly really like your eyes and smile!
If you do not message me again, I will understand, but will be sorry to lose you, even as a friend.
Really, really hope you will be a friend