Meng ask too much, meng afraid to lose you, i knw myself cant give wht a bf should and could give, everyday you will meet new people, everyday i am afraid, i dont know when the day will come when finally someone wins your heart as everyday your are meeting new people. Meng only can give what i am able to as for now and i do it the best i could for you. I know how shame i am, everytime begging for forgiveness over and over again, everytime ends up with tears,everyone look down on me, i am in the worst situation ever, but is okay as my love to you stay strong and stay persistent. Nat. Is okay, ill give time as you need it...ill change myself, my mind, and work hard until i can stand up once again to be a better person and be a reliable guy. My mom just came back, and the first thing she ask me whn she saw me when i b frm work is you. R u coming b? I bought 2 of her favourite pants and dad will cook things that Nat like and eat together as a family. I know its nth special its just pants and simple cooking. But its all from their heart as they love you as i do. And i always rmb the day my grandma cried for you, my heart is vry pain as this is the first time i see her cry for other people and tht shows hw much she care and love you. Anyway, always rmb tht no matter wht, you will always have a family here that cares alot for you..
Goodnight.