Chapter 30: Dream
I was unable to forget Papa’s murmurs while he was in the ICU.
So, I took this opportunity to ask him personally, “Papa… at that time, how old was Kamenashi in your dreams? And in what scenarios did he appear in?”
Papa kept quiet for a moment before he replied. “I dreamt about different stages of him. But the most common dream I had, was that I was by his side when he left this world”.
I finally understood how upset Papa was about this matter.
He was heartbroken when he knew that Kamenashi left the world in loneliness.
Papa would continue to live with this regret and remorse till the day he leaves this world.
He couldn’t bear with this fact, that’s why it kept reappearing in his dreams.
Papa wasn’t greedy to the extent of hoping for eternity anymore; he didn’t even wish for life to start all over again.
What he truly wished, was to be able to hold his lover's hands and stayed by his side all the way... till the other went into his eternal sleep.