Charles, you, it's all the same.' Her eyes were full of tears. "Macon, I know you loved Ethan, but you're not so torn apart by his death as I am. You seem unfeeling, unchanged." Sarah, I'm not unfeeling. I'm just trying to survive.' "Survive, yes. Survive unchanged by any experience, just like those silly travel books you write. You're empty, dried up, Macon, and nothing really touches you.' She put her coat on, clumsily. "So anyway," she said. "You'll get a letter from my lawyer.' Then she stood up and walked out