OK. Then here is my suggestion.
Let's postpone our meeting until you make your decision. IF your decision is that you choose me.
I'll cancel my flight, hospital, hotel, reunion for now.
Feel free to chat with, and try someone else.
Maybe you should give your ex another chance, or maybe you have friends on Thai Friendly that you continue to chat with, that are rich and can marry you right away, and give you everything you want.
You'll break my heart again into a million pieces. But it's fine. I will get over my heartbreaking in time.
I'm sorry. I will not lie or sweet talk to get you to love me. You have to choose on your own.