It's okay, I understand. How long has it been since you broke up?
I was married for nine years to the mother of my children (I use the term "mother" just because she gave birth. . . she's not really a good mom). She was so nice and she gave and treated me very well until we got married. Then things changed. I guess I did see some warning signs before we got married and I thought maybe it was a mistake, but we were so far along and so close to getting married. I thought it would get better not worse. I was wrong. My ex wife is one of the most selfish people I have ever met but she didn't show that side until after we were married. It was miserable living with her. Before I knew it we had a baby and after that I felt like I couldn't get divorced. I had to make my marriage work for the sake of my kids. The problem is it takes two people to make a marriage work. She ended up cheating on me. It made me angry because I was the one who worked and made the money, I was the one who took care of the kids when I was home. I made sure I didn't work too much so I could help out at home. It didn't matter. My ex-wife only cared about herself. The good thing was that when we divorced I didn't have to live with her any more and I was much healthier emotionally and I could focus on my kids and not worry about her any more. Of course after that I didn't want to date anymore. It was too much of a hassle. But that wasn't the worst heartbreak. About two almost three years after we split up I met someone. I will tell you about that later but it ended almost three years ago and I was, like you very very hurt. I thought the hurt would never go away and it did take a long time.
I'm so sorry you have such heart break. It's okay to cry and don't worry about being strong for me