I feel neither very happy or sad. I have started to well up and cry in the last few years when watching TV listening to the Radio up until this I hadn't cried in 10 years. I am very confident in my business and meeting people one on one with either a set agenda or for the first time. I can't be in crowds or parties, I just can not bring myself to be in that situation, when I meet people I feel I'm putting on an act and am very conscious of this. I have been told that I am very shy most of my life (a default introduction by last girlfriend) but I would be happy to do public speaking or important business meetings, in fact I would enjoy this.