Dearest Pim
Again I say sorry for us misundersatnding each other. Soon we will not have that problem.
I have a few things I want to say to you. I know you are asleep as I write these words, but I am looking over you as you sleep.
I am only a man and I have some of the faults of men, but loving you is not one of them.
I do not know all of your past - I do not need to know it. I know some of it was painful for you, and it hurts to think about it. But we are moving forwards now, we start a new life together soon and because we know what was bad, we know now understand what is good.
If we get married officially together Pim, I will be the happiest man alive - I have waited 51 years for it !! But if I marry you in Pattaya chances are we will be done by 1st or 2nd of September. This is the last time we will ever get married in this life, so let's do it right.
Now there is something I need to say. From the day we marry until the day | die I will never lie to you, cheat on you, put others above you, make fun of you or hurt you intentionally.
But your parents will not know this. It is important for me for them to know how much I care about you, that I am not just some fancy talking farang on the internet. But I cannot tell them this - I do not speak thai, I do not write thai. I can only ask you to say this to them for me.
If we go and see them, maybe I should write a letter for you to read to them, translate it for them. A small speech saying about why I love you so much. I would let you read it first of course.
I want them to know how much I care, how much their daughter will be loved and taken care of for the rest of my days. I want them to know I will help with your daughter and sister of yours. that I will help with what you are planning with your garden !!
People can go through life lonely and never fiding the right person. I do not hope you are that person - I KNOW you are that person.
From the first time I saw your picture I knew you were the one I had been searching for in this life. It does not matter that we will have no children together Pim - we have 3 lovely children already. And I would never put my wife's body in any danger by her bearing a child. I am not that cold hearted to do that to the lady I love - OK yes it will cost a fortune in condoms but it is a cost I would willingly pay !!!
They say that life is not about where you start out, it is about where we finish that matters. I see me and you as wrinkled old people, our 3 children and their children - our grandchildern - walking in your garden, happy and content in knowing the whole family is loved, no matter their birth mother or father.
I know that in the years to come as we learn to live together, there may be times for us that we feel angry or frustrated at each other for some simple and silly reason. Let us agree now, that if at any time we feel confused, let down or just unsure, we will just hug each other and say that we are a team, we compromise, we share and we never let anything get between us.
You asked me why I do not smile, I am not really a smiley person. Maybe that will change now with you. In the past 15 years - apart from the two boys - I have not had a great time, so smiles were not common with me. maybe I should smile more - you can help there.
Your loving husband to be, Richard