57. I never make you feel safe, like I can protect you. I am starting to now, I am working out and not only doing this for my image but so I can make you feel safe and protect you as well.
58. I have done horrible distgusting things that no girlfriend should ever have to see her boyfriend do, such as pee on the floor, and shit on the couch, very embarrassing
59. You have taken me back so many times and I have not acted greatful for these chances except the first couple days. Now its different, I am very greatful for this last chance.
60. I have messed with your mind, I made you love me and then lied about the person I was and then made you think that it couldn’t work between us.
61. I took a magical story about us being complete opposites, not liking each other, but destined to be soulmates and I took away your hope and beliefs that this was really true and it did have a happy ending.
62. I don’t ask what you want to do enough, such as see a movie you want to see, or how I went and sat while you got hair extensions even though I was really tired and didn’t want to be there. I need to do more things like this.
63. I don’t have any responsibility, I have many responsibilities that I have to do but I don’t get them done and say I’ll do them later and then forget about them. I make it seem like you can’t count on me.
64. I don’t listen to you and take your advice and think I know everything.
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I hope that one day you can forgive me for all these things that I have done to you. For the rest of my life, I am going to be making it up to you and being the man that you need me to be. You will trust me again one day. You wont have to worry about money one day. You will feel safe with me and I will be able to protect you and take care of you. I will make sure this happens.
Love always and forever,
Joshua