I cannot find any reason in the world to explain why but I trust how I feel. When it does not feel right, I will try to make it right. It is complicated, I know. I just want to make sure I don't hate you because I have never wanted to. I might be the saddest person in the future but I want a happy me for now. Seize the moment and make it right. I am not a good person. I am selfish too. People just want to be happy and my happiness is to see you being happy. With me or without me, it does not matter. And that is pretty much how I feel.
Thanks for understanding a complicated me.