Hi Noi,
I could not write yesterday because I was coming out of anesthesia from my operation and very groggy. Before the operation I had to get food, arrange transportation, buy crutches, clean-up, get work done, pay bills, etc. because I live alone in a house full of steps and have no help. You may think I make a lot of money but everything is expensive here and my job is not stable. I must produce results. I have also been having extensive dental work. The cost of both of these medical and dental issues will be greater than 450,000 baht. How many years would you have to work to pay for these two things? Do some research and understand a little bit about what life is like here as I have done about life in Thai. We need to be able to communicate much better.
When we met in early October we agreed on some things:
1. We would keep what goes on between us private, just between us
2. I gave you around 500 USD plus nice presents, meals, etc. I was happy to do this to show I am serious. Of that money you agreed to keep around 200 for travel to meet me, 200 toward some English classes and the rest for you to help your Dad or do what you want. The travel and the classes were very important to our future. We must be able to communicate and if we are to be together we must show US embassy people we have traveled together etc and you must have money to travel and meet me in HK because I can't always come to BKK. You have not kept your word.
Many times I have asked questions, on LINE etc. and it's like you don't even see them. You can study English on your own, you have an iPad. You can also practice with me on skype or LINE and never do. You can buy English children's books in BKK and use them to help you learn. It will benefit your life and career and family to know English well. Many people here work full time and attend college at night. I did it. Almost every time I talk to you you are watching TV. Plus you are always taking long trips to Isan and not even helping to drive. Plenty of time to study. You complain the trips are tiring and you just ride along? I also asked that you read the book Thailand Fever and we never even discuss it. If you were serious with me there are many points in that book that we would be discussing.
I wish you the best with your new government job and know you have been wanting it a long time. My work is getting busy here and because of these medical issues it will be months until I can come anywhere in Asia. You have told me nothing of any work you have done to secure a U.S. Visa.
Your actions show me that you are not serious about this relationship. I have strong feelings for you and do not want to be hurt. I think it is best that we remain friends but begin to date other people. Our relationship has not grown as it should have. If we are still single and see each other or if conditions change if the future I am willing to consider becoming close again. I do not believe that I will be moving to Thailand any time soon and honestly think that you will not be happy and independent in the US. If you really wanted to come here things would be different. Please know yourself Noi. Make good decisions for your future.
I care about you Noi and want us to be friends. Please keep our private information just between us and contact me anytime. I want you to be happy.
All the best,
Brook