8pm sunday march 18th
I feel really ill. I know I should not have made myself sick, but I have eaten so much this week. Mom has been complaining that she dose not know where the foods is going but I think she know it was me who ate everything. If she says anything else,I will scream!
Next week, I am going to be good. I do not want Dad to think there is something wrong when we go to see him at his new house next weekend.
4pm sunday march 25th
What a disaster! Dad had arranged this big lunch for me, and my step-mom got annoyed when she saw me picking at my food. I did not think she had notice-she was paying so much attention to Dad-but she got offended. Then Dad said that I had to make an effort to be nice to her , and I lost my temper. "If you had not left, none of this would have happened. "I said. He did not like that, so he brought me home early.
I have been so good this work. I hardly ate anything at school and Mom was to o busy to notice what I ate at home. Well, I do not care. As long as Mom is OK, Dad can do what he wants.
10pm sunday april 25th
After the disaster with Dad,Mom said that I would feel better if I had somewhere to let off steam, so I joined the local gym. I went every day after school last week. The instructor told me not to do too much,but I paid no attention.
I am still on my diet. I have lost 11 pounds, but it is not enough. If I have a bad day. I do more exercises at the gym .
Mom is really worried about me. She says it is not normal to think about food and weight all the tine. I know she is right, but what can I say to her?
2pm sunday april 15th
A lady come to our school from the Eating Disorder Support Group this week. I thought it would be a waste of time, but it was very interesting. She told us about different eating disorders, and what the symptoms are. From what ash said, I think I have something called bulimia nervosa.
I am thinking about calling her after school tomorrow. I will do it when Mom is at work, in case she overhears the phone call.
11pm sunday april 22nd
Well, I called Mrs. Thomson last Tuesday. She said she would like to see me, provided I talked to my Mom first. I was dreading it, but it turned out to be easier than I had thought. Mom knew something was wrong, and she was pleased I had do worked in out for myself.
So she come to the first meeting, but yesterday I went on my own. M rs. Thomson told me some really frightening things, but she thinks that I will be OK, because I started treatment early. I met some other girls who have bulimia, and they were really nice, too. It was good to hear other people who feel the same as I do. From now on, I will go every week. Even if it takes a long time, it will be worth it. P.S.I won't be writing for a while-Mrs. Thomson says it is better if I take about my feelings.