Don't think I can ever love someone again. Everytime I try love, I think about someone else in my past. She has forgotten about me. If I didn't have photos then maybe I would think it was just a dream. I want today to end but I don't really want tomorrow to start. It's better that way. My heart so fragile now it will break. I try to keep going without really knowing where I am heading for. I feel good then I come crashing back down. If you see me when I am up and happy you will love me. Maybe when I am down you will hate me and wish I was away. I can't explain myself so I don't expect anyone else to understand. Life too complicated and I don't see the point? I see people happy and laugh but I not really understand. My emotion it's seem fake and pretend. I only feel sadness. I can understand that. When I'm with a person so happy and optimistic, it means I can enjoy with them. But I can't understand how they feel it. I can experience happiness from another but never from inside me. I don't know, it makes sense or not?