Fluttering Heartbeat
Song inserted in this chap: Confusing by Jubi and Yi Jeong. (credit to owner)
Sometimes… we do have to be selfless not selfish and think of what’s going to be the best for the ones we love. I always remind myself that no matter how much I love him, how much it hurts me of seeing them together, I have to control myself and not to come between them. Both of them are my best friends and I love them equally much. If I have a choice, I would not hurt any of them. True love is sacrifice. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself. Love is selfless, not selfish. But why? Why everything changed in a sudden and why did he tell me that he love me? Did I hear it correctly? He said he love me. And at that very moment, I wanted to be selfish for once. Can I really have you? Can I have you today, tomorrow and… for the rest of my life?
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“So it was her all this while. You finally admit it. She was the reason why we broke up and why we can’t be together again.”
Park Shin Hye quickly pushed Lee Min Ho away and turned to Yoona when she heard her voice. When her eyes met Yoona’s sharp and angry gaze, she bit her lip and clenched her hands into tight fists. A pang of guilt creeps into her conscience, as if she was stealing something away from her best friend.
Yoona took few steps forward and her eyes were still glaring furiously at Shin Hye. She then let out a sarcastic chuckle. “So this is your real face. Say one thing in front of me and did another thing behind my back. You were just pretending to support me to fight for Min Ho oppa but you were actually trying to snatch him away from me.” She chuckled again. “Park Shin Hye, you are the most scheming person I have ever seen.”
Shin Hye shook her head as she walked towards her nervously. “Yoona, it’s a misunderstanding. It’s not like that. We…”
Slap…
Her sentence was cut off when a hard slap landed on her face. Min Ho widened his eyes in shock when he saw Yoona slapped her.
“Yah! What are you doing?” He raised his voice at Yoona as he quickly rushed to Shin Hye, pulled her away from Yoona and stood in between both of them. He looked at her face worriedly as he caressed it softly. Her flawless cheek was reddened because of the slap.
“Are you okay?” He asked softly.
Shin Hye bit her lip as she nodded her head.
Min Ho inhaled a sharp breath as he looked at her with a firm gaze. “It’s not a misunderstanding. Yoona was right. We can’t be together anymore because the person I want is you. I told you very clearly that the one I love is you and please don’t push me to her anymore. Even if you don’t accept me, Yoona and I will not be possible anymore.”
Shin Hye sighed deeply and pulled herself away from him, ignoring him. She turned to Yoona and looked at her apologetically. “Yoona, I’m sorry. I know it’s my fault that I fall in love with Min Ho oppa but…” She paused and stole a sideway glance at Min Ho before she continued. “… but it was long time ago and it was… just a while. I…”
“You what?” Min Ho cut her off with a stern voice. “You don’t feel anything for me now? Don’t you dare to lie, Park Shin Hye! You know you love me and nothing could ever change that no matter how hard you try to deny it and fool us.”
“Liar!” Yoona glared at her with her furious eyes. “Do you still remember what you told Il Woo oppa five years ago when he found out that I was dating Min Ho oopa? That night you were chatting with him in the playground and I heard everything you said. You said you love Min Ho oppa since the first time you met him. But if you really treat me as your best friend, why didn’t you tell me? You lied to me. You lied to me since the first day we met. I treated you as my best friend and told you everything but you were just using me to get near to Min Ho oppa. You betrayed my trust and our friendship.” She shouted, as her breathing is getting heavier by second. She inhaled a deep breath, trying to breathe some air into her lungs. Her head started to spin and her vision started to blur.
“Yoona, please listen to me. It’s not…” Shin Hye paused when she noticed Yoona’s face turned pale. Her breathing was so heavy and she was even wheezing. It’s her asthma. She is having an asthma attack because of the cold weather and her furiousness. She quickly moved forward and held her arms. “Yoona, are you okay? Have you taken your asthma medicine?” She asked worriedly.
Min Ho walked to them too when he heard what Shin Hye said. He scanned Yoona from top to toe with a worried gaze. “You are wheezing. Where is your inhaler?”
Yoona continued to breath deeply as she slowly lifted her hand up, pointed at the door, telling him that the inhaler is inside her room. But before Min Ho could react, her body goes limp and passed out. He quickly reached out to support her from falling onto Shin Hye.
“Yoona! Yoona!” Min Ho and Shin Hye called out her name at the same time.
“What’s wrong? Why is it so noisy out here?” Il Woo asked as he walked out of the house cluelessly. His eyes immediately widened in shock when he saw Yoona’s lying unconsciously in Min Ho’s embrace.
“Oh my god. What happened to Yoona?” He asked worriedly.
Min Ho turned to him with an anxious gaze. “She have asthma attack and fainted. Call the ambulance! Fast!”
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Shin Hye was pacing back and forth worriedly in front of the ER while waiting for the doctor to inform them about Yoona’s condition. Il Woo let out a deep sigh as he walked to her and patted her arm.
“Don’t worry. I’m sure Yoona will be alright.” He said, trying to comfort her.
She turned to Il Woo and shook her head. “It was my fault. I shouldn’t have lied to her. I shouldn’t have come. It was my fault.” She said guiltily.
Min Ho who was sitting on chair with his head buried in his palm, looked up and inhaled a deep breath. “It’s not your fault. It’s not anybody’s fault. Why must you always blame yourself when something happened to Yoona?” He asked, staring sharply at her.
Shin Hye looked at him and pursed her lips into a thin line. “How can I not blame myself? Before we come here, she came to me to ask for my help. She wants you back and I promised that I would help her. But can you see what happened now? She saw us kissing at the porch. And you told her you love me and don’t want her anymore. Don’t you think we are too cruel to her? We were cheating behind her back.”
Il Woo widened his eyes as he turned to Min Ho. They were kissing? No wonder Yoona has an asthma attack. He was lucky that he wasn’t the one who witness that scene. It would surely kill him too.
Min Ho stood up of the chair, walked towards Shin Hye and stopped right in front of her. “What am I to you?” He asked angrily. “A ball that you can kick around wherever you like? I’m a human. I have my own feeling and I have the right to choose who I want. You can’t make the decision for me just because you don’t want to hurt your best friend. You can’t…”
“Then what about me?” Shin Hye cut him off as her eyes reddened with sadness mix rages. She took two steps backward, lengthened a safety gaps between them. “I’m a human too. I’m not a puppet where you can control by strings. Pull me over to you when you are sad and put me aside when you don’t need me. Who you think you are? Do I have to wag my tail and run to you happily just because you said you love me? I have feelings too. When I needed you the most, where were you? You were having your happy time being with Yoona. Have you forgotten what you told me? You told me you love Yoona very much and nothing could ever change that. So what change now? Me? Because you know I love you and you change your mind? Do you think love is that simple?” She said as tears started to flood in her eyes. She know everything she said now will hurt him but she have to push him away.
Min Ho clenched his jaw, trying hard not to explode and pin her against the wall. This woman is driving him crazy. Being selfless is her best personality that he love her the most but at the same time it annoyed him when she is being overly selfless and hurt herself in the process. He moved closer but Il Woo stopped him by holding his arm.
“Min Ho. Yoona is still in the ER. All of us are worried about her and no matter what you say now Shin Hye will not listen. If you really want to talk to her, let’s wait until Yoona is okay and find a time to talk to her alone. You will not talk any sense into her stubborn head when both of you are so emotional now.” Il Woo whispered, loud enough for Min Ho to listen.
Min Ho glanced at his best friend before he inhaled a sharp breath. He then stared at Shin Hye as he pulled his arm away from Il Woo forcefully. He slowly walked forward and stopped in front of her, as he looked deep into her eyes.
“I’ll take everything you said just now as an angry talk because of your worries for Yoona.” He paused and inhaled another deep breath when he saw the tears welling in Shin Hye’s eyes. His gaze and voice softened instantly. “I know love is not that simple and that’s why I’m trying my best to make us work. If you really love someone, you won’t let anything get in your way. You will find a solution and a way to get past it. Relationships are successful through cooperation and understanding, not fighting.”
Shin Hye held his gaze as she bit her bottom lip. It would be a lie if what he just said didn’t move her heart. Of course she can see how much he was trying to make her understand and accept his love. But she knows this is not the right time. She doesn’t have the courage to take his hand now when Yoona was still in the ER.
Just then, the doctor came out and walked towards them. Three of them quickly rushed to the doctor when they saw him.
“How’s my friend?” Il Woo was the first one to ask.
“It was an asthma exacerbation or you