Her fluid telling now contrasting with her younger self's terrorized silence,
she assigns the trauma of the encounter to the past, and positions herself as one
for whom the event now makes a good story.
[He said] "What do you want coming here, asking for money?" . . . He called me a bitch
[bajingan]. "If you don't want me to have you then you're just a bitch." "Just pay me
now!" [I said]. He gave me four rupiah, four and a half rupiah. "Here's your money, now
get out of here! I don't want to see you!" So if he didn't want to see me, fine . . . He
threw that money at me [laughs], I wasn't even allowed to enter the house