Sweetie, I guess you are right. There are many other people who care for you more and perphaps much better option you can choose from. Im nothing compared to them. And dont say you are worthless because you are not. You deserves much better. Im sorry for doing it all wrong. As much as I want to hold you back and want you to stay by me, I know i cannot do that. It's being too unfair to you. I'm not a robot and I know how you feel, I really do. Do you know how I feel? You probably think im heartless and cold. Im struggling inside too and trust me I dont feel any better than you do, knowing that im hurting you 2 at the same time. Im lost, im in a dilemma. So I chose to avoid, chose not to choose and let each day pass day after day, not wanting to face the reality that it is not possible to have 2 I love in my life. And right now i am at the most bottom peak of my career and there's so much in my mind now that Im losing myself. You cried, so did I. Haha.