I'd Urge you to visit the hospital to see a spacialist unfortunately in Thailand there is a real stigma against mentalhealth issues. Being depressed doesn't make y crazy. Your brain just works differently, and getting some help via talk therapy and/or antidepressants can really turn your world around. I know what I'm talking about, too. I've suffered from depression all of my life. I can tell you that getting treatment can really change your life. Please get some help, and remember that no matter how bad you feel, there are people in the world who want to help you feel better. I'm one of them. Please take care Editor