After the job, I was called over by the guild master. Apparently I have the rights to the money and equipment of the members of the Fang of Orbtem.
I got a bag and the Tear of Keromi that I gave to Sacchi. Inside the bag were all the money of the members of the Fang of Orbtem, totaling to 140,800 suits. As for the equipment, it’s worthless so it’ll all be sold. The money, will of course, be kept.
Unfortunately though, I was told by the guild master not to expect much from selling the equipment. The equipment I got from the Fang of Orbtem definitely used to be good, but because of the acid of the acid slime, many of it has been damaged. Some of the obvious ones were the melted spear that had no spearhead left, and the armor whose leather strap and metal fixings have become brittle, making it impossible to wear.
One exception would be Sacchi’s axe. Because Sacchi was leading, he wasn’t able to use it, leaving it undamaged. It’s also apparently been enchanted with harden, make it a magic weapon. Like this, it should sell for a bit of price.
After that, Ryouma went home after also receiving the gathered corpses of the magical beasts.
When Ryouma rode the stagecoach, a large number of people showered him with praises. And now, he’s leisurely enjoying the quiet ride.
During that, he remembered what had happened again today.
It’s been awhile since I’ve let loose… I wonder when I got mad last was… most likely it was when my boss insulted my deceased mother. So the last time I acted violently was before I retired from that company…
As the people around me saw me thinking about what had happened today, they told me not to mind it. They were the ones were wrong. You’re still a kid, so it can’t be helped.
But am I kid? Wrong. Even if my body is that of a kid’s, I’m already a 42 year old grown man. I’m an adult that should be capable of reason.
Reason, do I have that?... No. Today I gave into my emotions and flew off the handle. Although I may not be completely out of mind, it still wouldn’t be strange for me to go on a rampage given the chance. Today I got provoked by the first six, and then because of Sacchi’s words, I was really just a little bit off of completely losing all sense of reason.
Because of the poison, I was able to cool my head a bit. And then, after that because I brought out my slimes from the Dimension Home, I was able to keep my distance and calm myself down. However, if I hadn’t let the slimes fight and instead fought by myself. I would probably have killed all of them. When Sacchi came at me the last time, I seriously wanted to strangle him to death.
Will I kill when I’m not liked? Will I kill whenever someone picks a fight with me? …if so, then how would I be any different from the Fang of Orbtem?
Somehow someway I was able to keep myself, but saying something like “I wanted to kill Sacchi by impulse” is unacceptable.
Right now, my abilities are more than enough. The only problem left is… my mind.
Now that I think about it, during my school days, did I really try to hold back? At that time there was already a difference in power between myself and my opponent. Would it have been possible to deal with them without hurting them? While I say that did my best at holding back, isn’t there also a part of me saying that I wanted to hurt them?
…I can’t refute that.