Yesterday you disrespected me, a man you say you love, a man who is 5 years your senior. You closed the door in my face and selfishly put your feelings and emotions first. While you were busy being selfish, I was busy being thoughtful. In the wind, rain and cold weather I walked into town to buy gifts for you, your daughter and your mum. I couldn't find the gift I wanted for your mum so I came home. I then found a store online where I could buy the gift so again in the even colder wind and rain I walked into town to get a present and to buy wrapping paper. As I came home starving at 6 pm having eaten no food all day I sat in my bedroom wrapping gifts for you, your family and friends feeling excited about my arrival next week and making your friends and family smile. I did it all for you. Not for me, but for you. It's not about the money. It's about myself staying positive and thinking about doing good for you. But you repay me with disrespect. You selfishly treat me like an enemy when all I've ever wanted and tried to be is your friend. I've always been there for you. Think about that. Please think long and hard about that. Stop thinking about your feelings for just one time and please think about mine. If you can do that then you will know how I feel right now and you will know the correct thing to say. You are always in my heart. Matt xxx