Pim,
Today you asked me if I would stay with you if you did not have a child. I married you Pim as I loved you - not because I only wanted you to have a child with me. A child would be a beautiful gift to our relationship - and if it happens, then I can tell you it would be loved by me all of the days I live. If it does not happen, then we were just unlucky and would have to live with it.
So, would I stay with you ? The answer is yes, but that is on the understanding that we were trying to have a child and you were still able to have a child - obviously there will come a time when you cannot have a child - that is why I am eager now to try now because time is running out. We can always make money - you cannot always have a child.
I have told you I would not leave you - but if you lied to me, cheated on me, were violent to me or ridiculed me then I may leave you. As I would if you were taking contraceptives not to have a child when you say you were trying to concieve with me - that is because you would have been lying to me on something very important to me.
It would not mean I did not love - it would mean that I had lost trust in you.
I am not going to run off to Pattaya Pim - that is just silly.
What I cannot understand Pim, is why you seem so confident that after being two weeks late for your blood, you seem so confident that you are not with child now. I ask you to test because I care what happens to you - not to moan at you - but every time you say blood later.
Are you scared to face the reality and want me there to be with you for a test ? I can do that if you want, though it would be nice for you to give me a hug at the airport in 2 weeks and say that the hug is from both of us. Understand?
Your health is important to me - do not forget that. And if I keep asking the same question it is because I care.
Also understand, that if possible I would like you not to work if you are with child - or something not strenuous, as you are older and more frail and I would not risk the life of our child. I would be happy for you to just stay and hug me in the bed with the baby inside you being kept warm by our body heat. that OK ?
Richard