Well, I dont know really how to break it down. But, I been given two options, surgery or stay like this and just do chemo. Like Dr. Day today said, I cannot keep going on like this and hope it heals, I wont live and it will end up being a gruesome slow death. Or, I can surgery. He explained in good detail about the surgery. It will last 12-18 hours. Its a team of specialist, think 4-8 doctors. This is supposed to be one of the best teams around. I start meeting with them in July. With surgery, I will be getting from top lip down, all replaced with spare parts. Including bones and tisse from me, and also certain animal bones could be used to replace also. I also met with the speechologist today. Theres a really high chance, I will lose most my tongue if not all of it. There will be a tremendous amount of speech lost. So I probably wont be able to speak. And if its near my voice box, I might lose it and not speak as well. I will have a trachnea, and it could be permanent. If I learn to make sounds again, I will get the chance to get one of those little devices that will speak for me. Surgery is already set in July. Just dont have the day yet. Its been held especially for me. They said they never seen a patient that is open wounded like I am. Said I am an extreme case. They are amazed at how I look, and still alive. They never seen a cancer quite like mine. Mine is very aggressive. So WAR is on!
My first appointment will be a PET scan again, done in Charleston this time, on their campus. I have 2 appointments prior to the PET scan. I will see a re-constructive surgeon, and anohter doctor. Cant remember. Then 4 more appointments after. But that is it. Thats the cards dealt. I dont have much of a chance either way. But, I have a better chance ofc, with surgery. I just now have to pray to God to help me get thru this part. Going to be a really rough road ahead. I will do my best to stay on it. Its basically come to a life and death situation. I choose life. God Bless all you who have supported me and pray and feel and have kind words. I love all of you. Keep praying for me, my life is about to change really dramatically. Im exhausted, but going to try and stay up til about 8:30 at least. So good night and God bless~ ttyal!