Baby I don't feel like I am able to give you the attention you deserve from so far away. I know your feelings are hurt because mine are too I am very busy during summer with work and I am a very active person I like to be spontaneous and do things when I want to do them and at 38 years and it doesn't feel right having to explain my movements and feel bad that you are not with me it is hard for me to be on the phone all the time when I am around people because it is rude to them and by the time I get home all I want to do is sleep and that is rude to you we hardly ever talk just you listening when I sleep and that is not fair to you I am sorry baby. With our language barrier it is hard for us to communicate with each other so instead we talk about the same none important stuff when we both need to be able to stress how we feel and the other person to understand. I want this to work but with the distance between us I find it hard I would like to talk to you so you could understand but with language barrier it is better that I write so you can understand I never want to lose you as a friend but I don't think that I am making you a good girlfriend the distance is just to much don't get me wrong I want nothing more than you but I just don't see how to accomplish that from a million miles away so I weep and feel discouraged