Probably my government takes money

Probably my government takes money from me if I save much. I need to keep being busy about my future and feel much pressure about that.
It's about that some people (authorities) expect me to be like everybody else, but I'm afraid I can only try then.
I hope to get some help me if they want me to be productive and want to let me do things I never choose for...
Mama, I want you, i think that is my first priority in my life now. I hope to feel better when you're with me sweet little girl mama