My girl, I don’t know what to say. You’ve cared about me for so long. You’ve always been there for me. I’ll tell you some things you should have known about me from the start if you’re even reading this right now.
Honestly, I seek attention. In the morning, I kiss you because I love you but also because I want your attention and because I miss my sweetie. When I don’t get enough attention, expect many messages and kisses. If you leave me alone intentionally, though, because you want to leave me, expect me to be heartbroken.
I’m very cautious. I didn’t want our argument to come off as if you were cheating on me, because I knew you wouldn’t do that and that you weren’t doing that. I didn’t say you were paying more attention to celebrities than to me...noway! You always talked about how you always think of me so yes, I believed you, and I did not doubt it one bit. I was just concerned that you were looking at some things that I told you already not to look at.
I never want breaking up to be an option. Ever since I was in middle school, I wondered, “Why do all these kids get in relationships just to break up?...They must not be in good relationships…they must have gotten together for the wrong reasons. They must have really hurt each other, they must have cheated on the other. And if not? How could they break up? How could they break up if they really love each other?” When I was hurt, it didn’t mean I wanted to break up with you. Just because you hurt me, it didn’t mean that I didn’t love you anymore or that I didn’t want to be with you anymore. None of us are perfect. I’m not asking you or expecting you to be that perfect someone. I do expect to get hurt, but I am forgiving. I do know who you are, you are a loving, caring person and you would never want to see me get hurt. And I am understanding if I did something wrong too. I misjudged the situation, you misinterpreted what I was saying, and it became a big mess. I do expect us to be persistent, to fight through any obstacle, to understand any misunderstanding. I do expect us to be together...not to break up...I never want it to be an option.
I never want to give up. To say, “I never give up,” is actually a huge lie. I did give up on several activities that I thought I wasn’t truly interested in or what I thought was fruitless...but with you, I’m truly interested in you, and I do believe our relationship has been fruitful and has the potential to bear many more fruits and years of joy. I do believe in us. I chose you, because I knew I could be with you forever...no matter what difficulty comes our way, I know we may fight together through it...I just don’t want us to fight against each other and if we do, we have to be understanding and open. Yes, I agree that to be narrow-minded is not good, and I’m sorry if I seemed that way recently. I want to know how you feel, and I want to see your argument through your eyes. I want us to understand each other, to come to an agreement or resolution, and to be happy again. I never want to give up on someone I have come to love so much as my partner and my companion for life.
I am very clumsy. I do make mistakes. I am very imperfect. But I am strong. I am persistent. I am improving everyday. If you want to be my girlfriend, you’re going to have to deal with my good and my bad...but always know, that I am always willing to fix my bad.
I hate statistics. “Many relationships end because…” I don’t want us to end but to continue forever, to fight hand-in-hand forever, to forgive each other, to grow together, to develop together to learn more about each other, to help each other improve together. I want us to set an example that we can be together forever.
I am willing to learn and to be more open-minded.