I just like to write to you and maybe write too much. But can not write enough for you to know who I am, only we see each other and talk as much as we can without neglect our other parts of life. Start optimistic.
---"This will be good, something good will come of it, I will trust it" and then we don't have to think to more "what if?" questions. Lets just see what will happen, talk about our lives, our history, our wishes, and practical matters like what if you want to come here--- how do we get you here? Or how do I get there? and what would life be like if we are together in either place? Many things to figure out anyway, even how do we get enough signal for skype or other video conference talk.
How to trust in life itself? There is no choice. We must trust it, because no matter what comes to us it is our life and if we are wishing to learn it is out teacher. You know it, not everybody does. I am making a guess that you know it. Easy to forget it when have a bad day. or week. or year. or 7 years. Only way to benefit from bad times is trust life and try to learn==not just with mind, but with whole self. No wonder the Asiatic religions believe in a succession of lives, because it seems that one lifetime is not nearly enough to gain any real wisdom, even if one wishes to.
So I very much admire that you want to improve yourself in learning and being in a better position to help others (particularly your own students). I don't know how it is in Thailand, but for my daughter it seems that her true learning lasted up to maybe second grade. After that it was more and more homework, and standardized tests, and learning only what to say and do "right" about different subjects and questions for which the answers are already known. Education to "fit in" to a society that does not know itself what to do or where to go, except compete with other societies that also don't know anything except how to fight with each other. I hope one day that people and societies will {grow up{ and care for the good of their people, and that the people care for those around them to help them in life. Very idealistic. Sometimes the idealists are the worst trouble makers in the society. So the question of how to better your life can get very confusing unless approached with simplicity and honesty and wonder.
Where do you live near Roi Et, so I can try to find it on Google Earth. I know now where Roi Et is but not much more about it. I live in a town Encinitas north of San Diego, right about where Encinitas blvd and Vulcan avenue meet together, a little north-east near a part where the two streets meet.