I hate myself in which I'm not whoever I should be, as I think before I am. In this regard that I must be ignorant of reality, what existing is not what it is and this is due to valuation of all values that has surpressed me for a long time. As such one of different people from one day to the next, I can't change my mould. Sorry, for my ignorance of all values, or we must embrace the sameness, Could you tell me?