It's not that you are not a girl I don't want to be with its just I can not see is ever being in a position to see each other and spend lots of time together and I think your such a nice girl you need to make a relationship quick and not waste time on just letters , there will be 100s of men who would love to date you but you need to find one that has not got the commitments I have and someone who can come to you and live his life