Lose her once, fall in love with her, get her back, lose her again, still love her, hate myself, etc. yeah.. It's called life. Life sucks. Nowadays it's hard to even find a relationship with mutual love... It's pathetic how people use love so lightly.. People seem to think love is able to fade... If it is love, you keep it.. Forever... Which is why it hurts so much for someone you love to leave you, because it just means... They never truly loved you back