Why you not sleep yet?
I know, it is always like that, we have plans and ideals and the circumstances mess it all up :) I started building our family house over a year ago and then my mom had a double stroke which left her dependent on my brother and me - and there goes my house :)
Still, it is interesting you mustered strength to leave Madrid (because I understand you are from there?) and go to Spanish Canary Island far away... you must be quite a strong personality, I admire that