Baby, your confusion is really only your own fault. You are dishonest to yourself and dishonest with those who should mean a great deal to you are you are not certain what you want, and try to get by being deceitful and people do not know where they stand with you because you only say half truths or no truths, You and Stan kind of belong together, hes a fake and a loser and you both live off each other. You do not want anyone to confide in and if you did it certainly would not be Stan, You just do not see it, I think the best way is to carry on playing your game and feel sorry for yourself. You don't want help or listening to, you only want sympathy for being dishonest in your own life to yourself.
It makes me sad and angry, But who am I to you ? Nothing. Is anyone important to you other than you ??
Think about it Pinyada, XX