Oh I miss you so much today. I know it's stupid but I do feel sad that you are not having my baby! I don't know why, I must really want to be a father. I don't know what happened to me! I must be crazy as we only just met, but I see you as mother of my children and everything to me, so it didn't scare me, I was secretly hoping it might be positive! I'm sorry to scare you but I can't help it, it's something I never felt before. I am shocked at myself for feeling this way! I need my mum!