He does not know how much longer I wait for him..
For a long time after the first experience that I gave him.
After that, he disappeared....
I drawing for him with a feeling of miss him and pain.
Until I wrote to my friend from Czech Republic.
All the time that I wrote to my friend from Czech I was always thinking he is dex.
At that time I was very weak.
And the fact that no one is more important than dex.
If he noticed, I gave him more time than for other people.
If I talk with others in the moment, and he started online.
Can I leave the conversation with others to talk just for him.
It's not about that my English is not good, make can not chat with multiple people.
Although my English is strong. I can't talk to many people.
In fact, although he is not online. It didn't make me want to talk with other people.
Because I do not feel any enjoy talking with them.