No matter what I say. You all will think it's my fault sure because her become like this. Then if I was the one in the hospital instead? Will you all think it's her fault? There is really so many things between us that maybe we both have been keeping it to myself, it might not be anything worth talking to her. But to me it really does. I really don't know how I can put everything into words for you and everyone to understand all to understand how I really feel. But maybe overall I'm just not a good guy and not a good boyfriend. I really don't know what I can do anymore. I also don't want her to be like this.