Ying, please read the following carefully.
I am truly in love with you for the first time ever in my life.
I never thought I would love anyone like I love you.
I have not slept all night and have been crying non stop.
But……..
I do not think you love me the same, maybe you like me a lot bit nothing like I love you.
I understand this and it is how you cope with your work, if you don’t fall for anyone then you cannot be hurt.
I dreamt that maybe I could come and see you again and maybe you would fall in love with me but I do not think this will happen.
What would you see in an old white man like me?
I know it is all business and work and you need to earn as much money as possible to support your family and I respect you for this, I really do.
I think if I try and keep things going with us then it will mean the pain I feel will only get worse the longer things go on.
It is better if I break my heart now, it might hurt less?
Some truths:
I have only slept with one girl in the last ten years.
You were the first girl I slept with in the last year, my first Thai girl as well.
I will probably not sleep with anyone else for a long, long time and no one will ever mean as much to me as you.
You really are a special person and you will one day find someone who will make you happy but I think we both know that person is probably not me.
I am an idiot for thinking it might have been.
I will never ever forget you. You will always have a piece of my heart.
Thank you for all the happiness you gave me, even if it was just a small moment in time.
I will still buy you a present as I promised I would and I only tell the truth.
I am so so sorry if this hurts you in any way but please understand what I mean.
Right now I don’t think I will ever get over you and my heart is truly broken but one day I hope I can live again.
I will love you forever
Gary